this one really has no title

im so tierd of trying to please everyone around me or trying to be a good friend and then i just get stepped all over like a freaking door mat! you have no clue how long i have been telling myself that its not true that you wouldnt do that to a friend but now i truly believe that you would. Your actions have shown me the truth. This is hurting me by even writing this blog but i had to get it out sometime didnt i? They way that i was there for you the way that i did things for you, i wasted my tears on you and i wasted my emotions on you. Like one of my favorite quotes say "Behind my smile is something you will never understan". so i guess i am saying is that im done being your doormat!