hmmm....is this good or bad?

hmm well i guess things have gotten a little better i guess you could say that... I guess when i went to a friends house my mom and dad started arguing and my mom brought up the fact that i didnt want to live with him anymore and ever since then, he has been trying to play happy family i guess you could say. Its a little weird, because im used to sitting in my room listening to them argue, but i know deep down inside that my mom is still not happy and niether am i. every time i go to school i try and keep a smile because when i dont everyone assumes that im upset so i try and keep a smile on my face, but in the inside im falling apart. I cant just speak my mind without him telling me that i need to shut my mouth. I mean when i sit in my room and listen to them argue it rips my heart to pieces because of the way he talks to my mom. And sometimes i come out an tell him to stop treating my mother like she is a piece of trash because that is not ok. But anyways now that we are playing happy family its just really weird. I mean to tell you the truth even though i look ok when i come to school im really screaming for 'Help" inside its like i go silent when i step into school. i dont know if people can tell i guess i just have gotten really good at hiding it mayb?