going under water..

Right at this moment of this day i feel like just going under water all the way to the bottom and not coming up. Thats how i feel, i dont get it why do people have to lie? Like they like to lie to your face its really irratating. Like when you have to find out the truth by one of your closest friends. Its like wow why didnt they tell you in the first place. Trust me when i say this if you had just told me the truth when i "asked" you i would just said ok and not even be mad or anything.
But no you had to "lie",ugh that is why im so angry and HURT. Ugh..and no im not mad at the other person why would i be? But anyways i dont even know why im writing this i know people dont care......and then people wonder why i dont talk well now you know....i alreadt feel like im drownding!! I wanna try and come up for air but more stuff keeps happening and i keep sinking more and more....